eskom.... argh

i wanted to post something totally different today, have the post all typed up and ready to publish, but now my bloody spell checker doesn't work and of course the paragraphs are up to shit again, so i'll leave you with this for now and promise to post something worthwhile Monday. I hope you have a dangerously delicious weekend people... sleep when you're dead and remember above all...

no regrets ok?!

you only live once after all :-)

new blood

what's up with blog land... deserted... quiet... ?????

i quite enjoy reading new blogs... some are just average... and then there you get bloggers that impress ... naturals.... and one of them is local which makes me even prouder... so here are some new blood you HAVE to visit... remember you can't judge someone with one post, read some older posts or go back for a few days... please let me know who you recommend i should go check out... our blog world/community can get quite involved so it's always good to introduce new genes to the gene pool...

Obakeng... Obi ~love your stuff dude!

Greg... http://gregbecerra.blogspot.com/

you rock guys!

bring out the honey!

some of us have mastered the art of flirting...i do not claim to have these powers, and yet i would actually love to... more often than not i totally fumble ... but it's still fun... our world is too cynical, we need to lighten up a bit... if people could learn to flirt more with each other that would be quite something... and to me to flirt doesn't mean that you have romantic intentions with a person... it can be with a girl friend.... or your child...or your dad....doesn't matter....old and young.... flirtation i have found... makes me feel alive... that's what i'm after... and of course the shock in the eyes of someone when they're not expecting it... i totally love that.... it's a difficult concept to explain... i just think that if i smile at the cute guy in pick 'n pay who's walking around with his frumpy wife...i'm not trying to steal her husband away... maybe he feels totally unappreciated... or lost or something and there i am.... acknowledging him...that's all...that's what a wink or a smile or a pet name does to me... it acknowledges that i'm alive...know what i mean?... it acknowleges that i'm a woman, a girl a babe even though i'm a mom and a parent and an adult... and we need to flirt with our kids, with our siblings, flirtation prob has a more romantic connotation to it i realise that.... but for the lack of a better word or term i'm using it for my purposes today...

every single one of us enjoy that recognition~ that spark you allow to flow trough you into someone else... have you caught the eye of a child that feels left out...that absolute immediate smile you get in return... that excitement when a guy looks at you and winks...and you'll never see them again... am i the only one that get's a kick out of that?

monday facts

i'm grateful...

1. that i don't have a police record


2. that my kids are on a better medical aid than i'm on


3. that i've never had athlete's foot


4. that my belly button is an inny and not an outy


5. that i can bath twice a day


6. that i don't have hiv


7. that i don't bite my nails anymore


8. that i'm happy for the first time in many many years


9. that i don't like pizza that much anymore


10. that "the apprentice" is back


11. that i'm not married to steve hofmeyr

things i am NOT so grateful for..

1. i have a mummy tummy


2. that i can't afford to buy a place of my own


3. i can't go back to the library cause i own them lots of money


4. that every mozzie in south africa has a craving for my blood


5. that "the amazing race" seems to have left our screens forever


6. the fact that jacob zuma will probably be our next president

friday!

have a good weekend ya'll!

only in africa...

it's raining

it's pouring

the old man is snoring...

what's with all this rain... enough already!... we're supposed to have summer and sun and stuff but this is the coldest, wettest summer i've ever had to live through... and what scares me most is the fact that i'm actually enjoying all this rain... i think i should go buy myself a pair of those flipper stiletto's...

i see brian's circus is back in town... they come every year... and every day i drive past them and think... i really should take the kids to the circus... and then i never do... the circus people have two huge elephants, i've affectionately given them names, hubba and bubba... these two giants walks around with no supervision or anything to keep them close... they just roam around the area and that's that... so every afternoon as i drive home i see two elephants... only in africa right... gotta love that!

say what?

why would anyone want to steal my toilet brush??? i've been puzzled by the disappearance of this particular item for quite some time now... and i have now given up... it's gone... missing in toilet bowl action... strange innit??

the kids are innocent, they wouldn't touch that brush with a five foot pole... so, the only logical explanation is that the garden service guys must have eyed it walking past my bathroom window... i leave it on the windowsill sometimes... but why? i wouldn't steal someone else's toilet brush... that's just too gross ... there is always a huge bottle of bubble bath on the windowsill... the thief could really have taken that rather...or... he could have taken the bubble bath and the freakin brush... such a strange thing and for some reason i have trouble letting go of this... not that someone stole something... but the toilet brush??? that's so weird and creepy on a totally strange level...

btw: so sad about heath ledger... i just don't get suicide... hope you rest in peace man...

updates... and the stupid little man

ok so this load shedding eskom business is really taking it's toll... i get to work at 8... blog... read blogs... lots of blogs... and oops at 1 o'clock the power goes off and no real work was done... this has been going on for over a week now... i am a bad girl... and what's worse is it's not bothering me... now the fact that it's not bothering me is starting to bother me... hmmm... i need to do VAT, and a load of other shit...that i really just don't want to do... argh... i am useless... maybe i'll feel better tomorrow... the boss is after all on holiday this week.... the other thing that is contributing to this go-slow action of mine is that my sister in law phoned me yesterday about the new job... it's looking good...!!!

btw~ i watched kill bill vol 2 on sunday night... people how can you say it wasn't a good movie??? i loved it, i even liked it more than the first one... you sure you guys watched the same movie... such a cool movie! that eye popping scene... yikes...

i really pissed a guy off in traffic this morning... i'm a really passive driver most of the time... if you put your indicator on~ no worries! ~ a~n~y~b~o~d~y can move in then, but the big thing is~ if you don't use your indicator... move along bud, you're not getting this spot in front of me... no ways... i give way for trucks, for taxi's... no problem... cause they use their indicators... but this morning mr. coupe was driving his little wanna~be street-racing car like a maniac in the morning traffic, and it's raining! and he didn't use his blooming indicator... and then... he wanted to have the space in front of me... ok... granted... he was a bit too quick for me... i couldn't keep him out... but the fact is he was just rude... so i honked at him... just a mild honk-honk... to let him know that i was not impressed... then... he turned around and started cursing me and shouting... he even moved out of my lane into the next lane so he could shout at me better... stupid fool... and while he was going on like a mad nutter... all i did was... i stuck my tongue out at him... mwhhhhhhhhhhhaahahah... oh my word... he didn't like that one bit... luckily the robot turned green and we had to move on but he was still zapping me 3 blocks on... fart-face, learn some manners would you!

the things i say....oy

i was reading one of sheebee's posts the other day... and she referred to the Afrikaner clutch plates... no offense taken sheebs! LOL ... and that made me think back to one of my most embarrassing moments....ever...



ok so most you all know that i'm an Afrikaner boere meisie... english is not my first language but in south africa we have eleven official languages, afrikaans being one of them... so we all converse in english quite a lot, with friends and family, at work and so on... so...



i have found that if i want to converse deliciously in my second language that i should firstly think in english ... not so easy... but i manage, if i really struggle, i just switch mid sentence to afrikaans, and my english friends are gracious enough to accept this... anyway... my basic english is fine, just sometimes... the tenses just get so screwed up it's just horrible... beyond belief... ok that's just background...



a few years back i worked for two partners, both english dudes... i was taking a coffee break and the one guy happened to be in the kitchen with me... and of course we did the small talk thing... this guy is a biker and had quite a bad fall on his bike... injured his neck... and during our conversation in the kitchen i thought~ i should ask Dave how his neck is doing... and then it happened... i asked him...



"so Dave... how are your neck?"



mwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahahah........... nooooooooooooooooo.... what was i thinking... fuck that day the earth should have opened right there and then and swallowed me whole... that would have been such a blessing... well i have to give it to Dave, he was a perfect gentleman... he had a little smirk on his face and said... "fine thanks..." yeah right... he probably told that story a million times to friends around the fire... eish...

and the award goes to....

i've decided to give out two awards, just because...

so... the first award goes to.... kyk... it's a snarky award... because he is the master of...

snarky snark sarcastic bitchy sarcasm bitch dane cook haughty mean rude snarcastic bug buggy dane fake go ballistic go nuts hinky irritable rant snarkastic...

and the second award goes to.... lee ... it's an award for best spelling... we love you lee! LOL

so that's it...

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

lizzy....

you know that lotto tv ad where the P.A. is called into the bosses office... and then sticks her tongue out at her boss....and then says: "lizzy do this...lizzy do that...lizzy lizzy lizzy lizzy lizzy!!!"...

i wanna be lizzy!
i am lizzy i swear...

not only because she won the lotto but because she could stick her tongue out at her boss... yeah i'm barely back and i'm hating the boss woman again... and i fear the end is near... wait did that rhyme... hehe.... she's turning me into a unhappy... moaning... irritable... pffftt... woman... and i'm hating every single second of it... i don't know what her problem is, but whatever it is, it's now my problem... and she's lovin' making my life miserable... today is a beautiful example... beautiful i use as a highly sarcastic inappropriate way... the load shedding in our area started at 1hoo... i sat there playing with paper clips for two hours... all my work was up to date... i've even finished all of my freakin' filing... nails and paper... i couldn't even make myself a cup of coffee... so i phone her and ask her if i can go home...

(please take note...S H E ... was busy... S H O P P I N G)

her reply: can't you go through all of our million files and alphabetize them...?

me: wtf??? excuse me????
are you yanking my chain woman??
isn't B just B... do i need to put mr. A.D. Botha now before Mr. P.S. Botha.... fuck me boss... i'm not doing that!!! you have to admit that is just S~T~U~P~I~D... ~!!!

arggggggggggghhhhhhhhh... i can take it no more... so what's my alternative you ask?

my sister in law is a landscape architect and she is starting a partnership/new company with an architect... and guess what... i'll do the drafting...... i've done my autocad training... i'm ready to rock and roll and leave the admin life once and for all... i just hope and pray this whole new company deal does actually materialise... cause i have to face it... sis in law has great ideas... but the follow through... hmmm... so on the one hand i'm hugely excited about this new career I'm maybe going to start.... hopefully... oh please God let it be... but i'm not getting too excited... many a slip between the cup and the lip / don't count your chickens before they hatch~type of effort... but still hugely exciting right??!!

so whatever happens i'm still stuck with dragon~lady for another 4 months.... luckily she's going on holiday next week... otherwise i would not have been responsible for my actions...

and... action!!!

i thought i was caught in the middle of a movie scene today... but it turned out to be a live cops and robbers moment that i had the privilege of witnessing... and let me just tell you i actually applauded the police while driving... this confused the kids but i was totally impressed... they were so awesome... so here's what happened...

after hours waiting at the eye specialists office and after millions of eye tests for the kids (thank God it's not Glaucoma after all)... i picked up some mc donalds from ronald on the way home... so there i was... yes with a divine french fry in my mouth... no good for ass i know!!... squeezing a tiny container between me thighs with the tomato sauce in it... you know i have to dunk the french fry before i can eat it... dah... so i was driving along like a law abiding citizen... and RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME... there is this black bmw... suddenly pulls out the blue light... pops it on the roof... and i'm like...

kids!!!!!!! lookit!!!!!!!! lookit!!!!!!!!

next thing the bmw's reverse lights starts flickering... and the siren goes off and they bmw blocks this other car right here in front of me... 3.5 seconds later this will smith look~alike cop jumps out of the bmw and pulls like 10 crooks out of the other car... he had a pistol in his hand...RIGHT THERE IN FRONT OF ME... i was scared i have to admit...didn't want to be hit by a stray bullet y'know... so i drove away like crazy... SO exciting... i'm even writing in capital letters and that never happens... so bloody exciting minute i had there today... go SAPS go! ...and thanks... oh yeah oh yeah!

disaster management...

i find myself quite unsatisfied with myself at the moment.. after the holiday i'm ignoring my mirror... i'm actually contemplating throwing a piece of material over it... like some cultures do when someone dies ~ that's how i feel... my sweet ass is on the verge of dying a gruesome dimply over sized death.... urghhhhhh... apparently (however someone is probably lying about this)... i have a fast metabolism, yipiee kayee mf's... that piece of info has brought me no salvation whatsoever... so extreme measures will have to be taken... diets don't work for me... either i have no discipline or i'm just following the wrong diet... so my plan of action will be between the following...

i need to fall in love or have my heart broken... those two always works like a charm... i lose all and utter need to eat when i'm in love... i have a tummy full of butterflies that feeds me drops of love juice 24~7... the other option... a broken heart... this option is suffice to say not so nice... but effective non the less... with both my divorces i was so utterly shattered i literally didn't eat for 3 months... i shit you not... did wonders for my bod but my health... sheesh... not such a good idea...

i just don't understand why woman were created so different... thin girls just live on lettuce with the odd lettuce eating worm to provide a little protein... and who wants to live like that i ask you!!!... i only know one skinny girl... the others are all normal people.. .the skinny one.. she's anorexic... so i rest my case... i probably need to up my exercise... but with the heat and the gym's inability to turn their air con on – i'm slightly fucked... so basically i need to fall in love... a tall order i know... few men have the power to do that to me... unfortunately!!! that is... only 4 men i've known had it – so statistically i'll have to wait another 3 years... which is just bloomin great... sigh

enjoy every moment...

BREATHE. Scream. Crawl. Walk. Talk. Potty train. Go to school. Learn your ABC's. Play cops. Play robbers. Graduate. Go to high school. Notice girls. Fall in love. Get your heart broken. Listen to goth music. Be a rebel. Sneak out. Skip class. Get caught. Get grounded. Study. Matriculate. Party. Get hung over. Get breakfast. Buy a car. Enrol in university. Party some more. Break someone else's heart. Flunk. Tell your parents. Flip burgers. Finish your studies. Promise to change the world. Get a degree. Get a job. Climb the ladder. Buy a flat. Go to gym. Have cocktail parties. Buy furniture. Meet the one. Share dessert. Get married. Sell the flat. Buy a house. Have children. Change nappies. Go out with the boys. Sleep on the couch. Buy a station wagon. Drive to ballet practice. Miss your son's rugby game. Get him a milkshake. Buy life insurance. Go through a midlife crisis. Buy a sports car. Quit your job. Start your own business. Make money. Spend it on your daughter's wedding. Spoil your grandchildren. Retire. Buy a house at the coast. Play bingo. Walk the dog. Go on a cruise. Come home. Sit down. Have coffee. Look back. Realise you've loved every moment...

Isn't that just perfect...!!!

i didn't right this ok... courtesy of a wimpy ... quite original i think!

haiku revised...

i was introduced to haiku a while ago... and it captivated me immediately... here is a brief description of what haiku is...


Haiku is a poetic form and a type of poetry from the Japanese culture. Haiku combines form, content, and language in a meaningful, yet compact form. Haiku poets, which you will soon be, write about everyday things. Many themes include nature, feelings, or experiences. Usually they use simple words and grammar. The most common form for Haiku is three short lines. The first line usually contains five (5) syllables, the second line seven (7) syllables, and the third line contains five (5) syllables.

Haiku doesn't rhyme.

A Haiku must "paint" a mental image in the reader's mind. This is the challenge of Haiku - to put the poem's meaning and imagery in the reader's mind in ONLY 17 syllables over just three (3) lines of poetry!


ok so i didn't follow the exact recipe... although that is quite a challenge and i enjoy it tremendously... the style i will follow (after a glass of red wine) opens with a hokku, which later developed into haiku a kind of a collaborative format... although i may be wrong... try it yourself why don't you... i have written very erotic haiku's and some beautiful everyday things ... this is sort of border line~

here goes ...

5 your eyes saw mine first
7 your smile reached out for my smile
5 our fingers touching

7 discovering each other
7 this one day we have for now

5 far away yet near
7 unsure if i want to know
5 not sure of your heart

7 i feel your skin and know you
7 i feel your heart beat fast, loud

5 slowly i touch you
7 your lips on mine for a while
5 probing what is mine

7 offering myself to you
7 i take you without asking

5 surrender to you
7 i give myself to you now
5 my mind forgotten

7 that moment, that instant there
7 gasping to make sense of us

5 you made me smile yes
7 a perfect moment in time
5 mine forever now

second post for today...

read this just now on nick's blog and thought it should be spread far and wide...

January 11, 2008 will mark six years since the first 20 prisoners arrived at Guantánamo Bay Cuba. Since then, 775 prisoners have passed through the gates and no trials have been completed. As a symbol of freedom and democracy throughout the world, the United States must hold itself to our own high standards. When we resort to the use of torture, abuse, and indefinite detention we lower ourselves to the level of our enemies and defy the basic values that we hold dear. Guantánamo Bay has tarnished the reputation of the United States and makes a mockery of our core values. Six years on, it is time to call once and for all for the United States to CLOSE GUANTÁNAMO! Stand with us on January 11th and let’s prove that those who would advocate for a lower standard are on the wrong side of the law... the wrong side of core American values... and the wrong side of history. Join me in signing the petition to Close Guantánamo and stand strong in support of justice.

hey hey it's friday...

thank God it's friday... i need to catch up on some sleep this weekend ... working can be quite tiring... yawn... every morning, ok since wednesday i had to get up at 6h30 ... crazy... not a morning person... i can't keep my eyes open or my mouth closed... horrible stuff i tell you

somebody did the rain dance... haven't stopped raining in roughly 3 days... i'm getting used to it and hope it holds till the weekend... nothing like being in bed while it's raining...

as you can see i have nothing much to say today so i'll leave you with this quote to hopefully inspire y'all lazy asses....(i know it's arses i just like using the donkey version ;-)

"Our plans miscarry if they have no aim. When a man does not know what harbour he is making for, no wind is the right wind."

~ Seneca

i'm a big boy...

i tucked the kids into bed just now... they're sleeping in my bed tonight... jay snuggled up to me and whispered into my ear... i'm a big boy now... i'm in third grade... smiling mischievously... it was so sweet... and it's so true... he's a big boy now... so is kay... i don't even want to talk about kay... i saw him naked yesterday, the first time in quite a while and lemme just say... he is a big boy now... if i was his pappy i would have said... "that's my boy!"... but i'm his mommy and my boys are growing up too quick... i treasure every time stuff happens like tonight... cause i'm on the verge of having those memories as only that... memories... i'm not depressed... i'm silently rejoicing that my boys are growing up... and silently heartbroken that these precious growing up years are going too fast... still, i'm so proud to call them my sons... my mom laughs at me when i tell her i still after all these years can't believe that they're mine... so this is proud mommy... relieved that the first day of school was a huge success... signing off ... nostalgic... remembering the little boys who hid behind my skirt... they are no more... they're big boys now...

wrapping up my holiday

boo hoo...sniff sniff... it's all done...it's all done... a whole month and two days... gone! all gone... oh well such is life right... i might be crazy... but i can't wait to go back to work....gasp... i know... disgusting... pathetic... can't believe it myself... but it shows that i've rested up and am ready for another year with the boss lady... i even miss her and her foul mouth... i'm back into P.A. mode... bought myself a funky diary... organised my life... kids are all set for school tomorrow... back to school and all that... i love this time of year... full of new challenges... oh my i've become that sunflowery person again...

this will be the last year that i stay home for the whole holiday... even crashing at family is better than this... don't get me wrong... had a good time... but holiday is just not holiday if you don't go somewhere... i need to see the sun set in the wrong place... i'm totally disorientated when i'm at a strange place... obvious right...the sun doesn't come up in the east when i'm away... and it sets in the wrong place too...

btw... i'm sitting here sipping oros... and dragging on a cigarette... how screwed up is that... i don't know what happened to me... my precious gin is in the cupboard... and i have no desire for booze... hmmm.... strange but embracing my oros in any case...

i did a whole lot of domestic shit this holiday... worked in the garden... broken nail to prove it... re-arranged my furniture... limited space so that was quite a challenge... sorted out the kids room... huge job... did all my washing... something that i never do... did some ironing... yeah i know... amazing.... cleaned the fish tank... cleaned the freezer... the closest thing we get to snow here in south africa... what else did i do... no that's about it... hugely domestic... hurl... i am after all not the domestic type...

the biggest reason i'm missing work is .... drum roll... my internet connection... fast... fast .... fast... can't wait!!! so i'll be all over you suckers tomorrow...!

note: i'm not even pissed at blogger anymore... see still no paragraphs...*skipping around in my pj's*

movie magic

it seems that everyone i know has already seen all the truly outstanding movies ever made... i have only recently seen the following movies, which i can truly say is absolutely brilliant...


fight club
lucky number sleven
face/off
twelve monkeys
identity


all of these dvd's for my viewing pleasure...courtesy of angel... thanks doll... loooooooved them!


i know i know, it seems i missed quite a few... tonight i saw another amazing movie... kill bill... volume 1... i will be in hot pursuit of volume 2 tomorrow... in all my life i have never seen so much squirting blood and severed limbs in one movie... and usually i don't even watch movies that violent...but the story line is as i like it... twisted....


my favourite line from the movie....after a particular bloody scene...

those of you lucky enough to still have your lives... take them with you... however leave the limbs you've lost... they belong to me now...

fuck~ do yourself the favour if you haven't seen it yet...or maybe i'm preaching to the converted...

family...oy~!

our extended family had lunch together today... at any given time there are roughly about five cousins running around in a pack... they're not a gang cause there is a definite order of seniority... and they act like a bunch of dogs most of the time...anyway that's besides the point... the pack came rushing past the dining room table to go for a swim in the pool and jay was the leader due to the fact that kay is away visiting a friend... so there my son was in his funky boxer shorts... a black shirt with huge dragons printed all over it.... and the shirt was unbuttoned all the way down... flapping in the breeze.... he was also wearing some surfer beads around his neck... so to say the least~ he looked extraordinarily strange ... my sister was watching him and said.... he looks like a drug lord on holiday.... whahahahahah... i haven't laughed that hard in i don't know how long.... ok maybe you had to be there to get it but believe me.... funny stuff right there....

my brother in law is in hospital.... a government hospital!!... because up to this point in his life.... even after surviving cancer in a government hospital... he still thinks that a medical aid is a waste of money... fuck i can slap him sometimes... anyway this weekend he had a bit of a problem.... he accidentally.... long story.... almost burned out his car... he runs his business from home... so there were about six other cars parked in his driveway... and if the one car caught fire well... see where i'm going with this.... so he needed a fire extinguisher.... and he needed one fast... so he ran to the house to get one... the front door was locked.... what does he do... what does he do??????????? ... he smashed the front glass door.... with his fist.... oy.... he didn't think! that's what he did... he cut his arm so bad you have no idea... he severed a blood vessel or something.... some nerves.... serious stuff... and now 24 hours later he's only being operated on... if he had a medical aid and gone to a proper hospital he would have been home already!... when my sister asked the surgeon when her husband's turn would be, he said... he'll have to wait his turn... if the doesn't operate on the others first... they'll die...jeepers... so if there's no one on the brink of checking out... that's when you get a turn....so when i start work on wednesday... guess what will be the first thing i do... organising them a medical aid.... i'm just glad he's going to be ok... good thing he didn't use his head right?

1 2 3 go fuck yourself

(i might regret posting this... it's 4 am and probably not thinking straight... maybe i'll take this off when i wake up... maybe not...this is just how i feel at the moment....i'll prob read this tomorrow and think WTF??)

1 2 3 go fuck yourself!

that's pretty much how i feel sometimes, and obviously how i feel at the moment, various stuff have pissed me off recently... and i don't piss off very easily... i'm a very easy going person with a high tolerance for the imperfections of human nature... i'm patient and i'm loyal... but fuck me over enough times and this sweet natured person can turn quite dramatically... but that takes years to build up... why do we do this, we "forgive" so many things, never sort them properly and here i am 4 o'clock in the morning unable to sleep once again... and this issue's nagging me without cease....

people tend to walk all over me because i'm nice... not patting myself on the back here ok fuckers... see that's not me... why did i just type that... no worse... why didn't i delete it... back to my point... it seems that people, ok not all people but i've come across some... they disregard the basic laws of friendship and just take what they want and leave... i'm not making sense am i.... so i have this other highly irritating characteristic... i'm stubborn... and in isolated cases, like this one... i take it a bit too far... unable to stop myself... and at the same time i so want to get this problem out of my life... i like to deal with stuff immediately, no i lie, they should have been sorted yesterday... but this "thing" has been dragging it's ass around my life for a bit too long now... and i've tried... up to a point... by rolling over... which i hate... but i know this about myself... i don't like to roll over if you're not willing to roll over for me... and face it sometimes we just have to roll over ... but very very rarely... that's maybe selfish but it's a give and take situation and i'm not giving anymore if you're not giving anymore asshole... sorry i'm not kakking any of you out... promise... so basically i'm extremely pissed off at the moment and there seems to be only two options available to resolve this issue... roll over ... or give that person the 1 2 3 go fuck yourself routine...

why am i doing this to myself?... enough already... but somehow i'm holding back cause this relationship is hugely important to me but on the other hand obviously not so important to the other person... and what worries me is that this utterly ridiculous thing can actually break this friendship... something i didn't see coming at all... i'm not good at waiting things out... this is not doing me any good... i have to cut down on the cigarettes after all...

note: blogger you can go fuck yourselves too cause no paragraphs again...sheesh

4th of january 2006

that was my divorce date... so i guess today is my new anniversary date... how strange... ;-)

besides the heart ache my divorce has caused my kids, looking back... it was without a doubt the best thing i could have done... !

i've changed in many many ways the last 2 years... but it's difficult to pin point each one of them... basically i've become happy again... and that to me... is all i want for my kids and for myself ... not heaps of money, not a palace to live in... but to know that we're ok, we're loved and that's why i have a ...

big satisfied happy smile on my face today!!

sleep clinic

yawn... i'm starting my own sleep clinic ~for myself~ for the next week... my internal clock is seriously whacked... and it's my own fault... due to the fact that i've had the last month off i've...

slept when i wanted to for how long or short i've wanted to...

so basically i never went to bed earlier than maybe 3 am or later every night... and then i sleep in till maybe 11 am... and have a nap in the afternoon...

i start work again in a week's time... my boss will probably frown upon the idea i have to take a afternoon nap... so as of tonight i will go to bed no later than 12, like a good girl should... and not sleep later than 8... and not take an afternoon nap longer than an hour... yawn... i feel hungover this morning.... more like sleep deprived...i couldn't sleep again last night... went to bed at about 1 and by 2 i was up again... this morning i have a breakfast date and i just wanna sleep.... i want my bed and my blanky~pout... *stomp foot*...!

ps: this no paragraph blogger shit is really starting to piss me off...i like paragraphs... what can i say

100... standing ovation required!

how did this happen?? this is my 100th post...fuck...time flies when you're having fun!! according to louisa you're supposed to do this buck naked...so here goes...

i even have the bottle of honey handy...

but dripping honey all over myself ALONE is no fun... so i'll chuck that idea for the moment!

i can't believe i've had almost a month's leave... i haven't slept so much in my life... haven't read much like i wanted to...but i've had fun...rested like i was supposed to... holiday's almost over! i'm was supposed to start working on monday and my boss phoned me yesterday to tell me that she's not in the mood to work yet, so we'll only start on the 9th...!!

i went stationary shopping with the kids today, they start their new school year next week wednesday, so ... more than a R1000 spent on shit.... lovely... but at least they'll have sharp pencils and cool backpacks to show for it...other than that i had a cup of tea with my parents today, it's their 48th wedding anniversary ...and they still love each other... thank goodness... my mom deserves a medal i swear... but my dad's cool... just a typical male... so good for them!! i will definitely without a doubt never celebrate a 48th wedding anniversary... that ship has sailed and was lost in the bermuda triangle...

my sister is hot on my trail...blog trail that is... i've told her about my blog and she turned green, yellow, purple, red...and a then green again....i've made her promise to not go look for me... that took much persuasion... i blog anonymously so as much as she's tried~ she hasn't been able to find me.... LOL... thank God...

so that's my boring news for today... normal every day stuff that makes my little world go round and round and round.... check you later squirts!

year new happy!!!

in the last 24 hours i've heard "happy new year" so many times that i just had to change it... so it's not happy new year anymore but.... year new happy!

enough already...

i think it's the obscene amount of corny sms's (texts) i've received wishing me all the most mundane things imaginable...ok now i'm just rude... but couldn't' just ONE person send me the following new years wish...

sweetass... i only have one wish for you babe....

i hope you get laid many many many many times this year...

see... that's all i want!!

year new happy everybody!!