it's a miracle...

today i actually talked to my ex on the phone for 7 minutes and 38 seconds... things have changed, thank the good lord above for that... it's not that i have been hating or cursing and sending bad voodoo wishes my ex's way these last two years, well maybe i've cursed him more than i should have, but believe me he deserved every curse word i sent his merry cheating way. oi! but for the moment there is peace between us, still very much divorced thank you very much, that won't ever change. we were talking about our son's 12th birthday plans for saturday and it was actually ok... he may be bringing a friend to the party (really??? would never have guessed) but i promise you it sounded like the poor man actually asked my permission, i must have misunderstood, nahhhh, good for him, it took him long enough @#%$, sorry, old habits die hard...

anyhoooooo i was wondering why do we call the former spouses our ex, ex what? ex husband (i know!) but what does the ex really stand for?? the word ex i found in my little oxford dictionary, stating former husband, but it still does not make sense to me... maybe the ex stands for:

exacting: making great demands, requiring great effort, hehe this is so funny, this must be it!!!

exasperate: annoy greatly, this could be it too...

except: not including, exclude from a statement... excluded from my life more like it

exchange: give or receive in place of another... this is scary stuff

exchequer: person's supply of money... heheheheheheh

exclaim: cry out or utter suddenly from pain... i rest my case!

my ex certainly fits all of these descriptions, bastard, but what is so very sad, and it took me two years to get this is, i was in mourning all this time because i lost that person i fell in love with, that was a great guy, but he is gone forever. james blunt has a song with these words... goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend, you have been the one for me.... fuck that's sad... those words (although i will never admit this to him,ever) is exactly how i feel...

well, life goes on, onto happier times and onto men who does not cheat on their wives, that is what i want, really, is that too much to ask?