can it be???

ok before i get into the "can it be????" part....i had a great weekend, little jay had his birthday on friday...8 years old...my baby is not a baby anymore...sniff...anyway we had a party on friday and on saturday and on sunday...really...parties sort of gets out of hand in our family...we just can't get enough...and then of course it was rugby semi-final last night...we are so gonna win the world cup!!!! touch wood~hug a tree~ i can't wait for the final!

back to "can it be???..."

*sigh*

so after two years of being divorced...very happily divorced i might add...rainbows and shit, that kind of happy...my sixth sense radar...which is always finely tuned...picked up vibes that i wish are wrong...let me explain...saturday morning...my ex pitches up to take the boys out for the morning...we planned to buy them both new cell phones...big surprise...so i had to go with to get the contracts signed...daddy pays the bills...i have the credit rating...anyway...the kids love the phones...they were ecstatic to the point of me contemplating to get some alcohol into them to calm them down...calm down of course i didn't do that...but they were so happy and jumping around like crazy people..it was unreal...so cellphones bought daddy informs me in front of the kids...let's go for breakfast....i'm like...arched brows...o~k~...the kids of course "yes yes yes mommy~ come with us pleaaaaaaaaaaze..."...so i went...i was so scared someone i know would recognise me ...this was just the kind of thing the shrink told me to avoid...the smallest thing gives kids hope ...anyway i ate my breakfast in a record time...and excused myself...so later...he drops off the kids...and gives me a digital camera....sixth sense radar warning bells ringing incessantly...roger that gut...i've got you covered...over and out...sigh...he's too friendly...the gifts...we are civil mostly...but friendly...not really...and this morning i got an email from him... he says the kids want to spoil me...booked me a facial...ha!...fucker...i~am~not~stupid...he must be trying a new drug of choice because i honestly think...yes...he's trying his best to make me soft...then to come in for the kill...fuck!!! why is he doing this... i can't tell you how annoyed in am at this thought...and you know what...he's gonna use the kids...he's tried it before and he's trying again...that really pisses me off...don't use my kids to get what you want...it reeks of a manipulative, self absorbed, selfish person...and in very poor taste...shame on you....so i will have to be brutal...which will be much fun...

thank the dear Lord i'm over that man...i just don't get it...men sure are funny...and quite predictable...