Wednesday, August 27, 2008

supermom cape for sale

objectivity is such an awesome thing... in afrikaans it's called perspektief, i think its slightly different from objectivity but flip I'm too tired to go look for a better word, so objective it is... deal with it...


i won't give you the whole spiel about the appointment we had with Kay's psychologist... but he is such a sweetheart...i know... damn that wedding ring!!! LOL he truly gave a very honest opinion about Kay and it made so much sense... he filled in the missing puzzle pieces... so I'm hugely relieved... my son is way better... it's a fucking miracle i tell you... and the best of all, batman paid for everything... hehe... no, I'm really grateful it turned out to be such a short process, I'm so thankful I was referred to this shrink, he worked miracles... now Jay has to go... har har... and he refuses to... i know! honestly that little guy has the attitude of a WWE fighter... and the temper to boot... so I'll just have to cuff him and carry him over my shoulder... cause he's going, that's a fact...


i had a mini breakdown on Sunday... i just want to die of embarrassment if i think about it... ag it wasn't so bad... i just had a huge moment where EVERYTHING was just too fucking much... after almost 3 years i sometimes still get overwhelmed... shit this is not what i signed up for... but hey, tomorrow is another day... I was talking to my Dad of all people, he doesn't do tears you see... and the next moment... booooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooo.... and he's like... it's OK... honestly, go get a tissue!!! hehe but what was the worst was that i couldn't stop crying... I'm not a very loud cryer, OK occasionally when my heart is ripped out of my ribcage i can really let it rip... but it was actually pitiful... the tears kept on billowing down my cheeks... and I'm telling myself... get a grip... stop it this instant!... and that made me cry even harder... the tears just rolled... and i wish i was at home so i could just get it out... cause obviously I've been suppressing all this shit so much that at that breaking point, i just snapped... anyway... i stopped... eventually... and then i had lunch with my sunglasses on :)


I'm feeling much better, nothing major... so no need to worry, promise! but I've been going through "something", hell i don't know what... maybe it's the move, maybe it;'s Kay's exams... but maybe things just got a bit much, and that's certainly OK with me... honestly i can't be superwoman permanently, somebody want the cape??


so I'm taking a step back... and taking a deep breath... and clearing my mind of all the worries and the responsibilities for a second... and starting again... met 'n bietjie nuwe perspektief :)

26 COMMENTS....bite me!:

sleepyjane said...

Aww, sweets! Sorry you had such a hard time on Sunday. :( Everyone has their moments I guess, and you are totally allowed! {{hugs}}

Caz said...

aw friend, you're a chick - it is your prerogative to bawl sometimes!! and the longer you keep it in the greater the flood as we all know!! hope you ate some chocolate and feeling better!

On a different note i must congratulate you wholeheartedly!! WWE wrestler. Not frikken WWF wrestler. You know how many people and JOURNALISTS get that confused? dumbasses. So thank you for getting it right. It is my pet peeve!!

sweets said...

jane... i just need to allow myself to cry more, i mean honestly... who am i trying to fool here?! LOL

caz... thanks hun... but no chocs allowed or do you want to me start crying again when i get on the scale tomorrow?? LOL and yes I know a thing or two about those wrestlers, my kids love them... why? i have no freakin clue!

supermom said...

It's okay to have a breakdown every now and again. HUGS to you

Tamara said...

Hehehe... I know exactly why that pisses Caz off.

Glad you're feeling better. Sometimes we need a "good" cry. Never feels good, but it does seem to work.

Glugster said...

A mini breakdown is acceptable as long as you don't go postal and start killing people around you!

BTW - I've got a big whip if you want to use it on Jay!

sweets said...

supermom... thanks, so should i post the cape to you? :)~

tam... so odd that tears makes us feel better, i don't like tears tho... others i can handle, but my own... lawd no ;)

glugs... i was sure to put all my samurai swords away first... i know that whip of yours, 333 you! ;)

BecauseIcan said...

oh sweets.. just allow yourself more "me" time.. superwoman is overrated and whoever thought she was such a good idea should get knotted with her..

((Hugs))

The Jackson Files said...

Ah sweets. I get these kind of days every now and again and they SUCK. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better though.

Arkwife said...

My instant remedy. A sad movie or book. That way I have an excuse to bawl my eyes out. I hate crying too, but every girl needs to break down once in a while.

I'm glad you're feeling better :-)

Ruby said...

awe sweety! it's ok:) even us super people are allowed to cry sometimes.......just don't you dare remind me of that comment when it's my turn OK????

Hugs and kisses coming your way strong woman:)

Oh, and by the way...it's pretty much perspective in english too:)

kyknoord said...

It's a good thing you aren't a cowboy.

sweets said...

bic... fanks doll, and yes i agree... superwoman schmuperwoman ;)

jacks... i somehow imagined things would get better and stay better!... but, obviously not :)

ark... good idea! dvd's for sure! i can still remember how i bawled my eyes out watching "titanic"... oh my goodness LOL that would be perfect :)

rubes... perspective... it just doesn't sound right!!!! hehe

kyk... capes and cowboys? i don't think so... and another thing... you are such a guy you know that?! obvious statement i know... LOL all the girls send me cyber hugs and mushy girly messages and you're all cowboy tough :)~

Kingcover said...

What did I tell you to do?!?! "Put down the onions they will make you cry Sweets!" .... But did you listen to me? Oh nooooooo Sweets knows best, Sweets knows what she's doing, onions wont make her cry, it's just a little onion after all! Well I hope you've learnt your lesson to never cut raw onions!
Yep I'll take that cape from you and use it to wipe away your tears :-)

Kingcover said...

BUDDAPESTYYYYYYYYYYYY BABY!!!!!!

ozymandiaz said...

often life's sorrows can be overwelming. It happens to many of us. Glad you're feeling better

Southern Sage said...

Well sometimes it gets bad
sigh
glad your doing better
Glad Kay is doing good too.

Slyde said...

you were looking at his wedding ring?

how could you? i thought we really had something.......

angel said...

aaaaw sweets... and you were so on my mind this week!!!
i think its sometimes good to let it all out in one go!

Kingcover said...

Yes I believe Angel is correct. You should just let it all out in one go ;-) *snicker*

pure evyl said...

Sometimes a good mental health moment is good for the soul.

Donnnnn said...

Sometimes we just need to have a witness when we have a moment.
There's nothing wrong with a good rinse..we all need them. I try to do a few small loads in the sink but once in a while the dirty laundry piles up and there is no getting around it.

I'm glad that you feel better. Coping is a bitch...
let's hug it out!

XXX OOO ;)

sweets said...

king... you are a sweet guy, someone ever told you that? if not... there it is :)
BUDDAPESTY BABY!!!!

ozzy... it was hugely unexpected, but true, i'm feeling much better... but then again, i didn't know i wasn't feeling good... see where i'm going with this! eish :)

kay... yeah he's my lil' ray of sunshine :)

slyde... i was looking, i just couldn't help myself... LOL... sorry i was two timing you there wasn't i? ok spank me :)

tjomma... isn't that strange how we start thinking of somebody and then they're going through something?! so odd... :)

king... no comment ;)~

evyl... how many good health moments equals a bad one? :)

donnn... sweet man, you are so funny and wise :)

Kingcover said...

BUDDAPESTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

Kingcover said...

I think I might change my blog name to Sweet Guy. That might confuse a few people if they saw our names together though. Lol.

Wenchy said...

Nobody is superwoman ALL the time!!!

 
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