Wednesday, November 21, 2007

in pursuit of happiness ...

it's been almost 3 years now since i've made my life changing move, packing my things and with a babe under each arm leaving my old life forever... can't believe it's been 3 years, somehow it feels too short... on the 4th of january i will be celebrating my new anniversary ... divorce day... i remember all important dates in my life, and with huge surprise i realized that for the first time in 18 years i forgot that the 18th of september was the day i met my ex, way back in 1988, and i've remembered that date ever since... unreal...so it's official...i've moved on!

another thing that i did after the divorce was final was to chuck away my wedding albums and to sell my wedding ring... to some this may be a bit extreme but i can't tell you how easily i let go of that... and the money came in handy...!!... ok i kept one picture of my wedding day, of me in my most stunning wedding dress, 19 years old, looking virginal and beautiful...not a fucking clue what utter shit decision i've made...

so this december i will be taking my id document and will be changing my surname back to my maiden name... big step but one that i want desperately... it's the last string i need to cut to be totally my own person again... the people close to me think that because of my kids i shouldn't bother... but it's something that i can't explain to anyone, i want my old identity back, the person i was before i even met him... and my maiden name is way more cool than my married name anyway...so there...

if i ever decide to tie the knot again...firstly the knot will have to be blessed by the bloody pope himself...i don't know... i won't easily get married again... he'll really have to be super special with loads of money and a huge.... nose.... or something... but then i think i'll keep my own surname... the one i got from my daddy... so back to the might-be-getting-married-again-one-day idea.... maybe i'll just live off him and use him for my personal pleasure....yeah i will have to do just that!

so i'll be practising my new signature this december, imagine that, i feel 16 all over again!

9 COMMENTS....bite me!:

Glugster said...

Going back to your maiden name. Sounds like a great Christmas and birthday present to give yourself.

Once again I salute you sweet damsel.

Szarek(Will) said...

This is not extreme....Its the right thing to do..

As you said...get your old identity back...I think you will feel more comfartable then

SheBee said...

Wow. You are really brave, RSA.

And congratulations darling! You've come a long way by the sounds of it!

sweetass RSA said...

thanks guys!!!

angel said...

i am so impressed with your determination to take your life back and be yourself!!! you go girl!
BIG HUGS!!!

Living Bridget said...

You are so strong! I admire you really!! All the best.

Louisa said...

Good for you! It really feels much more final once you've taken your old name back...

sweetass RSA said...

jip, last step for me to take!

Louisa, you never sleep doll? 1:47 on a wednesday morning....?? :-)

Louisa said...

Hehehe...uhm...not really.

I usually sleep between 1:00(ish) and 05:30(ish). Must be my conscience? ;-)

 
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