Tuesday, May 6, 2008

random


i just read my morning newsletter i get from news24 and have you heard about this????
15 000 dead?
i don't watch news for one day and i miss this.... shocking!

ok onto other random things... i sometimes hear a voice... no i'm not a schizophrenic... really.... this voice never talks to me otherwise... just when i'm about to fall asleep... that nomansland where you are in between consciousness and dreamland... and he always says the same thing... and no i'm not telling you what he says... so strange... it's not really a voice but more a thought or a feeling i guess... strange... innit... i think it is...
anyway my BIL had cancer about four years ago... burkitt's lymphoma... scary stuff... i don't know if you've ever known anybody who's had chemo but my poor BIL looked like death warmed up, and i'm not trying to be funny, it's something that i will never forget and hopefully never again will have to witness... btw my BIL is today a healthy normal person again... anyhoodle... i can't remember the technicalities about chemo but at some stage he was in so much pain that he was permanently on morphine, and morphine changed him, nobody expected it, nobody warned us ... but all of a sudden he would say and do the strangest things ... so i saw him last sunday and the discussion was about ah man i can't even remember but he started telling us about the voices he heard when he was on morphine, he said that it was so real that even today he doesn't know if it was real or not... having ones brain altered or medicated like that scares me shitless... that's why i never tried any drugs really, did the odd spliff but nothing more than that, where some people get off seeing cycadelic rainbows around everybody's heads... well that's just not my scene, bit of a control freak i guess... or maybe i'm just a sissy :)

if you were wondering...no... i don't really have a point to this, was just thinking out loud with my fingers on my keyboard...

14 COMMENTS....bite me!:

c@th said...

i 'hear' people all the time.its all about being connected. X

angel said...

i sometimes hear someone say my name. its not a distinct enough voice for me to recognise- but i very definitely hear it.

The Jackson Files said...

Chemo really sucks the big one. I've never seen anything as awful as my poor little granny when she was on it.

As for voices, I hear them too - and when I do, it always makes my heart lurch.

sweets said...

cath: you do? i am amazed i really thought i may be loony ;)

angel: my goodness you too??... i really thought i was quite odd

jacks: yip i agree, chemo is very very scary... all 3 replies and all of us hears stuff, am i the only one who finds this fascinating???????? :)

Glugster said...

I sometimes hear somebody screaming my name! ;)

kyknoord said...

I used to hear voices. Then I got an iPod.

sweets said...

glugs: oh my greatness... this probably happened when the bed broke right???!!! mwhahahahahahahaha

kyk: they're still watching you know... ok i just scared myself a little bit...

ozymandiaz said...

i thought once, thank god it wasn't out loud
as for voices
I hear em
just barely
on the edge of audability
distant whispers
in the silence
never understand a word they are saying
but, just like in a crowded room full of conversation how you can hear your name being said 5 converations away above the din, I can hear them say my name
amongst the whispers



time for my medicaiton

Elise said...

Um... The only voice I hear is my own. In my head.

"Elise for F**k's sake there's a bloody step there. Now look, you've got a ladder in your tights. wonderful. How attractive."

xx

The Divine Miss M said...

Ye I'm the same as Elise. I yell at myself all the time!

I'd only worry if you engage in conversation with The Voices ;)

Slyde said...

ive been watching that news story all day....

the death toll just keep going up and up.. its insane...

Denguy said...

I also hear some one say my name, and it's not always clear, but I hear it.

sweets said...

ozzy: har har... :)~

elise: now see that's one thing i don't do, i don't talk to myself in that way... must be very entertaining right?!

divine: i'm so glad you two didn't reply first, i would really have felt stupid... but alas... i'm normal after all :)

slyde: it is insane, i keep running that number in my head and i just can't wrap my head around it, scary man!


denguy: see... we're all just crazy and normal all at the same time, good times!

The Divine Miss M said...

You're not normal ;P

 
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