my son turns 12!

i remember being pregnant, with an enormous boep...


i remember giving birth after 18 hours of labour...


i remember every second of that day...


my life was never the same again...

on the 4th of august that same baby boy will be 12 years old... time sure does fly when you're having fun. i just can't believe my baby boy is almost 12! i still feel 12 years old most of time myself so when did all this happen??? i had two kids and two divorces (same guy...oops) in the last 18 years... it all went by too quickly(the good parts that is), i know i sound like a old woman today but my goodness it all really goes by so flippin fast.

both my boys are incredible little human beings, i really have been blessed (most of the time anyway haha) the ~un~blessed times were my own fault, wrong decisions, plenty of those darling... anyway....

happy birthday darling boy, i try my best every day to teach you all that is good and hope that life will smile on you, remember to be happy always ok? i think in life you choose to be happy or not to be happy, choose to be happy, promise me that please. it's so much fun to be alive, we've got so much to be thankful for, make the most of every second! i'll be on the sideline cheering you on, screaming my little heart out, you've made me so proud, sometimes i can't believe that i played a part in you being who you are. always be the kind, caring, funny and lovable kid you are today, you've really made my life so worth it. love you so very much, like i always tell you...

i don't know what i would have done without you!!!

love you always and forever and ever XXX