failure to launch

oh my fcuk... i just hate bloody facebook... i've tried... i really have... but to be honest it's not working for me... why??

i don't have the faintest but there it is... i'm admitting defeat...

sigh

how people can spend hours on facebook i honestly... smack me silly... just don't get! i have this nagging feeling that i'm missing something that everybody else is getting but... that's just how it is...

recently i was complaining to an old friend of mine about not seeing her often enough and her solution is... are you on facebook?? as if that is that answer to world peace!... but is that a good enough substitute for actual friendship... hell no! i have online friends... people that i will never see or never meet... and that's cool i have contact with them on facebook and with blogging ... but my real life friends... don't expect me to catch up with you on bloody facebook... how absolutely random is that??

so to my facebook friends... firstly thank you for your patience... i do send cards and stickers and stuff your way... i'm slow ... i know i am... it even takes a while to register that i have something new to accept... oy, for some reason i find this whole thing very embarrassing... then there's the friends issue... i only have 24 friends... some people have literally hundreds... wtf is that all about??? i find facebook such a strange medium, it's totally odd and totally useful and totally useless all at the same time...

bottom line: i won't cancel facebook but it's really not blowing my hair back... because:

1. i have no clue how to cancel my profile :)


2. i have found some people out of my deep dark past that is very very cool, so for that i have to give facebook a cheer...

but spending hours on facebook...

not... likely :)

facebook

i caved... yes i did... i joined facebook... but the hopeless optimist that i am, i actually thought facebook would be easy... either it is easy and i'm just clueless or i'm just not getting it... i sent out invitations that i didn't even know i did... and even got some friend replies... that was nice... am i in high school again? it does feel a tad like that... so thank God i have some friends.... wmhahahahaha anyway i hope i get with the program soon, cause i think facebook is supposed to be fun right? which it isn't for me at this moment... and what is it with you people who use your blog names on facebook?? unfair... i object! isn't it supposed to be a real life~coming out of the closet with your normal identity kind of thing?... i came clean you buggers... now i feel like being caught with my knickers around my ankles and i'm the only one...

i went to the bloggerati party with glugs and angel on saturday night... i do not know what i expected but *sigh* wasn't all that good hey... oh i know... MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE HELPED IF SOME OF THE BLOGGERS I KNEW WENT!!!... there was the strangest dude parking with us for a bit... i did not meet one blogger that i knew... blog parties can be very cliquey ... tsk tsk...

my boss is off to cape town for four days...whoohoo good times, it'll give me time to figure out facebook ...

facebook

i don't do facebook...shocking i know...but i don't know where everybody gets the time!...blogging takes up quite a considerable amount of time in my day...i have quite a few blogs i visit...so how do you guys fit it all in??...and of course the big question...what is the big attraction??...tell me so that i can rethink my strategy...

the problem i have with facebook...and blogs have the same problem... most people like to blog semi anonymously, like me... it gives you the freedom to really say whatever you wanna say without anybody you know or love realising that you are blabbing to the whole world what you are up to... and what i find quite interesting is the fact that your online "voice" or persona usually is perceived in a certain way...people obviously have a mental picture of a person... and as humans we usually think that person is way sexier or prettier or nicer than they really are...face it none of us bloggers are really models...we are normal people with freckles and stuff... i don't have freckles but i'm just saying... why do we always expect someone we meet online to be bloody perfect... we are all human... girls usually have cellulite guys, really only the really young ones don't... you single guys usually aren't that great looking either... so what? we don't expect you to look like brad pitt do we?...are we all supposed to be perfect... when you are young...that makes me sound ancient...which i'm not...but when you hit your thirties i think most people realise that there are more to most people than their looks... but it seems that most guys want us girls to look like pamela anderson... and hello people... even if you think she is a hottie...i think she's a ho...and i don't wanna look like her...that is high maintenance right there... and you guys sure don't want high maintenance do you... you want the perfect looking chick with a perfect body and a perfect personality...and i'm sorry to be the one to tell you... you are having a wet dream... wake up and face it... we are normal girls ...with probably a normal body, lovely tits and of course i have a sweet ass... ok do you really think i have a sweet ass... big shocker... i have a normal ass... we all seem to live in la~la~land and seem to be disappointed so easily...