please!

let me just say this...i love it when we kick ass!!...our little country beat the mighty english at cricket and rugby this past friday night and sunday night...i was so proud!....whoppeeeee...go boys go!...what got me was when we sang our national anthem at the start of the rugby match...every single person i saw sang nkosi sikelele iafrika...out of their hearts...it was so heart warming...to all that look at our country and pity us...don't...we've come such a long way...and we're going to beat the odds...watch...anyway...enough of that...i had a wonderful weekend...friday was fun...we were selling marbles...latest craze at school...and i just had to chuckle...these little kids came past our stall, inspecting each little marble like a pro...they reminded me of diamond dealers...holding the marble in the light to identify the little sucker...theehehheeehee...it was precious...another thing that was quite interesting was the fact that some of the older boys came around...obviously recognised jay...then shook his little hand in greeting...amazing...after a while i gathered that it's because he's such a pro with the marbles...figure that...respect....why do i find this so amusing while feeling oh so proud of the little man...nothing wrong with a good old fashioned handshake...charming...i thought...we made a nice little profit which had to be spent immediately at the nearest toy shop...sigh...after that the afternoon went slightly pear shaped...jay developed tonsilitis...arghh...sky high fever during the night...doctor first thing in the morning...one amazingly good moment was when i left the doctor's reception with a wave over the shoulder...toodledoo y'all...i had to hold myself back i almost skipped out of there...i was so happy...you see...dad (the dreaded ex) was paying for the visit and the medicine with his brand-spanking-new medical aid...hehe...which i will be using without cease...ahhhh...payback...you know i believe in sending out good thoughts into the universe...well today i want to send out the following single good thought...that the ex (bless his adulterous soul)...will keep his job...everyone i know...and knows him...also know (i know! giggle...that must be grammatically wrong...)...that a good solid job is n~o~t something the ex clings to...amazing isn't it!!...so i am shit scared that their predictions of him leaving his newly found job will come true...my best friend was saying like ten times over the phone this morning...you know he's going to leave his job...he's not going to keep that job...and what if the bad thoughts were collected up in a big butterfly net in the sky...huh...what then???...ahhhh...i felt like climbing through the telephone line and shoving the bloody words back into her mouth...but the negative comments just kept coming out too fast...have mercy...i know they mean well...but this new job will be paying the child support i haven't been getting for the last 8 months ok????... shees...nasty....don't spoil this for me...pleeeeeeeease....so for every person who said "he will leave his job"...i will say "he will keep his job" a million and two times today...tomorrow when i have more energy i will say it five million times...i sound kind of desperate don't i...oh well i don't care...i just want that freaking child support so much...i can taste it...

this is monday...i am really lazy...so excuse me if i can't produce much more than i have done above....yawn...will be back tomorrow...

relief...

exam report back: it's done...finito...can't change a thing about it, workbook's handed in....monkey puzzle completed... thank goodness... it always feels like an anti-climax after a exam, it's like all the hype when you get divorced and then suddenly you are a divorcee and like...hello?? everything is still the same...where is the lightning bolts and the fire works...hmmm....it's obviously been a while since my last exam.... and since my last divorce for that matter...did i ever mention that i've been divorced twice...but wait there is more...i actually married my ex twice (the sex was great)...shut up! i know...never ever marry your first ex again...but that's a story for another day... but i can't tell you how glad i am that's it's done... the exam that is ...now my new worry is... will i pass???!!!! if i don't i will have to blame the devil...nah doesn't apply in this case... remember that excuse... "the devil made me do it"... grabbed his ass or grabbed his...the list goes on but i will not bore you more than i have to.... so can't use that in this case so if i fail to pass (haha) i will just have to accept it i guess, "it is what it is", is my motto most of the time.... try it, unlike the devil excuse "it is what it is" really does apply to just about every other situation ... but i'll probably pass... fuck i hope so....

other good news (will i never be rid of the ex!!!???) the ex got a new and better job, not that he basically had a proper job for the last 5 years (dickhead), but i am much relieved... believe you me....he got a good job and will be paying actual money into my bank account as of (i guess) 1 october... happy days are here again!! whoop whoop... but unlike in the past i will be saving every single sent (how boring! i know!) in case i have to go without child support for a while again... you see i haven't gotten any financial support from him for the last 8 months... and what blows my mind is that he never apologised about this, just acted as if i had to understand that he's not able to pay at the moment.... big fucking deal... if he just once told me...dearest ex wife i do so ever appreciate that you have been the sole provider for our kid's needs for the last 8 months... i kinda would have appreciated that...asshole...you see here i go again, i want to swear if i think of that man... anyway if dickhead can produce moola i'm happy as a pig in shit...good times